Saturday, October 16, 2010

Lovers Anonymous Anyone?

Seems like everyone's talking about LOVE these days.. 

Question: Why isn't there lovers anonymous?  A place where an individual can go to be mentored on things like; preparing yourself for an accidental run in with an EX or 'old habit', ways to avoid unnecessary calling/texting, tips on how to stay away (even if you REALLY don't want to) and how not to shop/visit all the places where you might bump into that special someone.  The nonexistence of LA might be the reason for Thursday night.

At least I'm not the only one..

How many times have we all heard, "should I message him/her or am I being crazy".
It doesn't matter how you answer them because a minute later they will message you, "I sent it"..
Let's not forget this one.. --> "He or she wants to hang out" (NO TIME TO RESPOND) "I'm not going to sleep with them".. Again it doesn't matter how you answer because two hours 2 hours later.. "There coming over.. OMG".. The next day when you wake up, no matter how early it is, you'll have this text message waiting for you --> "We did it".. Followed by.. "But don't worry I don't feel bad about it.. I just really wanted to".. By the end of the day tears, what did it mean, why haven't they said anything and why did I do that. Unfortunately somewhere in between the tears and the advice the individual has already fired off  7 paragraph text messages and tried calling at least once... but yes you're probably right.. They're probably working, left their cellphone in the car or it must have died because you know he or she didn't charge it last night.. 

Albert Einstein said this, "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." So why do we put ourselves through the constant heartache and heartbreak? Here's my phone #(555)-555-5555 let me know if you know something I don't.


What haven't we learned?

No you shouldn't call, this time isn't different, you are going to sleep with them, NO they haven't changed, they did see that you called,
that text message they say they sent that you didn't receive they didn't.. but YES they did receive all of yours, the grass isn't always greener on the other side, now that Steve is no longer in the picture it doesn't mean you should get back with Stan and it is a good thing he's with Sally, don't buy a new outfit for a date with a person who always blows you off, if you did buy a new outfit and the plans 'fell through' keep it for a day that you just want to feel hot, please don't sit around until ten pm waiting for a text message from someone that you had plans with at six-go visit with friends, it is never the last time if it's been the last time before, don't delete them off Facebook out of spite and don't be upset when it is you who has to be the one to add them again, stop analyzing absolutely everything-yes it is driving you and all your friends nuts,  sex does change things, if you hear they're sleeping around but choose not to believe it wear protection and don't only own a blackberry because you can tell if they've read your text message or not...


Even with I'll the advice I've received I am still sitting here wondering why he hasn't called today...

A few tips:
>If you call in to Rogers you can block a number from calling but remember this does not include text messages. When the person eventually calls an answering machine will play a recording informing the caller that they've been blocked
or..

>If you don't want the person to know you've blocked them since you're not sure if they'll even call anyways, there's an app from Rogers that allows you to block a number including text messaging.  The plus-side++/downside the person will have no idea you've blocked them even if they call.
>For those of you with an iPhone there is an app that you can use when you've been drinking to block certain numbers from sending or receiving calls/text messages until the next morning.

Here goes..


Thursday, October 14, 2010

FAITH, FREEDOM, UNCERTAINTY AND PUSHING FORWARD

October 13th, 2010

The last few months are kind of a blur, everything is the same.. inconsistently consistent! Somehow I've become dependent on that inconsistency. What a gas.. not.. (that's my not joke). I'm bittersweet about history no longer repeating itself..

In March 2011 I'm going on a mission to Guatemala and I'm really excited about it.. my excitement is also accompanied by some newbie jitters. I have lots of questions because it's my first time. Yep-lots of questions. Also realated to Trinity, I'm going to be baptized mid month November.  I've started preparing my testimonial-I get goosebumps just thinking about it! Batism is mentally solidifying so much and helping me to stick with my new path.

I've started looking for work since being let go about six months ago.  I'm looking for something that pays about $20 an hour. I'm going to start saving some money which will enable me + give me the freedom to make some decisions for myself. One thing I would like to do is go to school.. for what exactly I don't know.  I've been doing some research on becoming a paralegal but I have some hesitations.  This is a bummer because I know I'd find it interesting. A little bird reminded me of bible school. Although I'm still in the research stage I'm leaning in this direction.  I think God will provide me with the answers I'm looking for and what better place to find them than @ bible school!

My birthday is coming up and I'm turning 22.  This years going to be different. The only thing that's the same is the one person that counts, my rock, won't be there. Since I'm in my twenties every birthday so far has been something I've looked forward to.. I'm sure I won't feel that way when the wrinkles and grey hairs start to appear BUT that won't happen for like 50 years!!!!!  This year is sad and happy.. it's about letting go of the past but it's also the begininning of the rest of my life :)

If you haven't noticed recently I made some changes and pretty much revamped my life (An act of improving the form, structure, or appearance of something OR A new and improved version).  It's been scary.  The scariest part? Doing it on my own.  I guess I'm forced to put all of my uncertainty aside and indulge in my faith.  Some people don't understand why I'm doing the things I am and might not agree but in the end I know I'm being fruitful and finding out who the real 'Sydnay MacLellan' is. That's what's important. 


I don't have spell check and I'm absolutely horrendous @ spelling.  Hopefully that isn't overly apparent in my blog.